Leaping to the Other Side

"only by trying to take a bigger leap... u'll make it to the other side."

I wrote this quote after reflecting over "me" in dance. As a "guy" dancer within the grade, dancing modern has always been a great leap for me. Usually I'm in a constant tug a war between fears and reality. Many times I would back down. Was I not good enough? Did I make the team only because I was a guy? Was my performance well prepared? Maybe the teachers are just trying to make me feel better by commenting me.

These fears come when tryouts appear in front of me. Should I take the risk and advance or should I stay silent and walk away. Chances are things that posses question marks. As its future is blurry and hard to see. The feeling of uncertainty and having qualms between each chance makes me draw back. However if the only thing you can do is wait, chances would only slip by. I learned that chances are there for you to grasp by yourself. When given we must be able to take the measures to hold on to this chance. I can't change the past and can't predict the future, but there is one thing I can do embrace the present. As I live in a life of present, chances are there. If let go it will turn into the past. To wish next time I have a better chance in the future. Sometimes making that additional leap over the mountain is necessary. Because if we don't take the risk the only thing we can do is stand on the other side and wait.

Leaping takes courage and a little luck. Really remember having to go over Dance Production tryouts. For me I thought it was a big farce. I didn't know that I was going to take the tryout. I was late for the tryouts. And I was wearing jeans (lol hahhaha) totally unstretchable. I totally died during warm-up. Thought Mrs. Flemming was torturing me trying to make me touch my toes, and pointing my feet. Partnering was off for me, really awkward. Couldn't do the lift at first, too weak or just scared. Solos...don't want to talk about it. Kept looking at others, didn't even know what I was doing. However I thought the teachers and my friends gave me a lot of support. Henry was always there encouraging me in the tryouts. Keresa and Sarah Y. really helped by saying "good job" every now and then. Mrs. Quek telling me to enter the tryouts to have fun. Chris lending me dance pants so I was able to be more flexible in. Thankkkks a lot. I'm really grateful for the support, because this gave me the courage to continue. I had a little luck and made main cast, Dracula's friend. And that's how my modern dancing fell into my life. But if that day I quit after the first day of the tryouts or I waited it out till next year. Precious time would be wasted or maybe I wouldn't have ever danced modern. The leap itself was horrifying but I did make it to the other side.

Leaping to the other side, you'll never know what might happen...